Black holes and other phenomenon

Went to bed at 2 am, wide awake at 7 am, went back to sleep after hubby left for work, slept til 9 am.

Woke up motivated to do things.

Made a cleaning to do list.

Checked email...got sucked into the black hole that is my computer.

Time now 12:52 pm.

Tasks accomplished: zero

Wondering where all the time went?

Time warp?

No. Evil computer...

Feeling kind of blue

So I have been unemployed officially one week on Saturday. I have been actively looking for a job for three weeks and I'm so sick and tired of it already.  My self esteem is pretty low.

The question "Why should I hire you?" runs through my brain and I think "I don't know. I need a job and your listing caught my eye. I'm really not all that excited about job hunting. I'm really just looking because I have bills I need to pay and my online business is not paying for itself."

If there is one thing that I have learned about myself is if I don't have a steady schedule I have a tendency to get depressed. Working for myself is a good idea in theory, but I have not been able to set a schedule that keeps me completely productive throughout the day. There are too many distractions. My house is a mess but I am not the least bit motivated to clean it. I love my husband dearly but he can be just as distracting as anything else. The TV, internet, organizing my business stuff, etc, etc, etc... I'm keeping busy, but nothing is really getting done. My life is chaos, and I feel like I'm spinning out of control.